Thursday, September 20, 2007

An old question revisited

Leroy Sievers had a blog posting regarding this cartoon a few weeks back. It seemed oddly appropriate at the time, as I was spending the day in the hospital for my weekly basting. Fortunately, no one has spotted any doctors with rifles in the hall so far.

Leroy posted a blog recently revisiting an old question - who should we tell, and how should we tell them? It would seem that by now, everyone who knows me, knows that I have cancer. But there are always new acquaintances that pop up where you have to wonder..."What would be gained by telling them I have cancer?". Is it fair to start up a new relationship with someone and leave out that little detail? Or are you gently playing the "cancer card" by letting it slip into the conversation to see what kind of reaction it will elicit? Early on, I was pretty indiscriminate and told everyone - perhaps I could have been more subtle and measured. But it's not news any longer, or at least not for me - it's old news, been there, done that. The cycles of treatment continue on. It's not that I'm just shrugging off cancer - there is scarcely a moment that I can't feel the effects that treatment has on my body. But at this point, I'm less inclined to bring it up when meeting someone new. It just doesn't seem necessary.

Sorry that I've been a bit behind in posting. Between just being busy at work and home (remember, life continues on, cancer or not), and just being a little physically run down, I didn't get anything posted last week. My marker number went back up to 8.5 two weeks ago, and then just as quickly as it went up, it slipped back down to 5.2 this past week. I'm betting that with the reaction that I'm getting already from the last treatment, that we get another big drop. We'll see in few weeks with the next set of measurements.